Hii Guys, I am revisiting forum after almost one year. Last year 2015 I mostly released lot of anxiety. There is improvement in my overall state of mind but there is one problem that's really nagging me. I don't know why but I mostly feel powerless in my body. Sen refers to this as bodily depression. Its like a low state where you feel like you have no wind in your body. This bodily weakness is feeding in to my mind's depression. One logic was that I have not faced enough fear and hence I am feeling weak. Here is a list of what I've done to feel powerful or overcome weakness. 1.I fought physically one on one with one of my enemy. 2.I fought with three to four guys at a time who were bullies and was beaten by them. 3.I pick up a fight with a petrol pump guy. 4.Gave awkward speeches to overcome stage fright. 5.Listened to recordings of exorcism at 3 am at night just to overcome fear. 6.Rebelled against my parents. I don't know if these events are really fearful ones but for me they were fearful(me having a history of escapism).Also sometimes I really feel suicidal due to this presence of weakness in me.I have been on this journey from 2012.The storm is still not ending.Has anyone else been feeling like this.Any thoughts or advice?